"You aint never been blue, no, no, no… till you’ve had that mood indigo;
That feeling goes stealing down to my shoes… while I just sit here and sigh,Go along blues…” – Nina Simone
Lately I’ve been having the blues… about work, love and life (not necessarily in that order). Constantly thinking about it drives me nuts… and so I’ve decided to write it down… Writing doesn’t chase the blues away, but it helps to reflect and find other ways of looking at the situation.
First, about current matters… One of my most pressing concerns now is what to do when my cousin, who is my housemate… moves to Canada. Obviously, I cannot afford to rent the apartment alone. I could either rent a smaller place, live with a friend or with my aunt’s family. OR, I could relocate back to Laguna, where the cost of living is smaller. On the other hand, I’m not certain about work opportunities there.
Second, about work… I’ve been with the same company for more than two years. For me, that’s quite an achievement! And I don’t regret making a “shift” from research-writing to teaching, although the two are still quite related. I’m still learning, still a little afraid, trying to take things one step at a time. Eventually, though, I know I’ll have to take another “big step” – I have to, if I want to grow more.
Third, about love life… Oh, this is a complicated one. It’s been a loooong time since I had a committed relationship, and I have yet to meet “the one.” The fact is, when it comes to love, I think I’m too picky, and over analytical. Sometimes, I think what my highschool teacher said is true (Ang pag-ibig… pag inisip, nasa puso… pag “pinuso,” nasa isip). Still, I know that love will come in its own good time.
And finally, about… church. Lately, I have “distanced” myself from the “church.” For a number of reasons. I assured one of my friends that I haven’t turned my back on God (I could never do that). I just need a little more time to sort my thoughts and feelings out.
When I ask my mom what she thinks about all this, she would always say… “Whatever you do, I just want you to be happy.” I’ll be sure to heed her advice.
That feeling goes stealing down to my shoes… while I just sit here and sigh,Go along blues…” – Nina Simone
Lately I’ve been having the blues… about work, love and life (not necessarily in that order). Constantly thinking about it drives me nuts… and so I’ve decided to write it down… Writing doesn’t chase the blues away, but it helps to reflect and find other ways of looking at the situation.
First, about current matters… One of my most pressing concerns now is what to do when my cousin, who is my housemate… moves to Canada. Obviously, I cannot afford to rent the apartment alone. I could either rent a smaller place, live with a friend or with my aunt’s family. OR, I could relocate back to Laguna, where the cost of living is smaller. On the other hand, I’m not certain about work opportunities there.
Second, about work… I’ve been with the same company for more than two years. For me, that’s quite an achievement! And I don’t regret making a “shift” from research-writing to teaching, although the two are still quite related. I’m still learning, still a little afraid, trying to take things one step at a time. Eventually, though, I know I’ll have to take another “big step” – I have to, if I want to grow more.
Third, about love life… Oh, this is a complicated one. It’s been a loooong time since I had a committed relationship, and I have yet to meet “the one.” The fact is, when it comes to love, I think I’m too picky, and over analytical. Sometimes, I think what my highschool teacher said is true (Ang pag-ibig… pag inisip, nasa puso… pag “pinuso,” nasa isip). Still, I know that love will come in its own good time.
And finally, about… church. Lately, I have “distanced” myself from the “church.” For a number of reasons. I assured one of my friends that I haven’t turned my back on God (I could never do that). I just need a little more time to sort my thoughts and feelings out.
When I ask my mom what she thinks about all this, she would always say… “Whatever you do, I just want you to be happy.” I’ll be sure to heed her advice.
